SCOTLANDDD

Sooo I leave for the U.K. three weeks from today exactly. I'm so pumped!!! Anddd so nervous at the same time haha. Last time I went I wasn't exactly the best at getting places by myself. When I couldn't find a taxi (and being me, I didn't think to ASK anybody) I decided to walk home. 15 miles. In the rain. In January. I made it 13 miles before I gave up and used the emergency cell phone. Another incident occured when the bus me and my friend were on decided to turn out to be the wrong bus and went 4 hours in the wrong direction. At least the bus company people took pity on the two stupid American tourists and gave us free bus tickets to the right location. So you can see why I would be a bit nervous to go again.

This is the first time that I will be legitly away from home. Travelling by myself for the first time, trying to navigate airports and busses and getting paperwork situated and all sorts of fun things that come along with visiting Scotland for two months. But I think that this whole thing can be used for good.

I'm really pumped to see how I'll handle this. I know I have two paths that I can go down. One, rely on my own wisdom and strength and see how well I muddle through things. Or two, put the two months and all the situations that will occur into God's hands, and watch things go well. I know from experience that letting God take the wheel is the best option; when He drives, He takes all sorts of short-cuts, long-cuts, and scenic detours that you never thought of or knew were there. It may take longer, and the drive might seem a bit more out-there, but in the end it was a wayyy better ride than it would've been had God been riding in the back seat.

What I find interesting though, is how even though I know which option is better, I still have trouble choosing it. Even though I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has my best interest at heart, more often than not I sit in the driver's seat and go down the roads that I think look good. Sometimes I'm lucky and I can hear the directions that God's shouting at me from the back seat. But most of the time I'm too busy listening to loud music, checking my hair in my rear-view mirror, calling my friends, and looking at a bad map, and I don't pay attention to what He's telling me. Why do I do that??

It's definitely something that I'm trying to work on. And I think that this trip is going to be a perfect time to really lean on God and let Him show me all the cool things that He wants for me. I can't wait to see how He's going to grow and shape me more into His image and into the image of the woman that I'm meant to be. I'm excited to see how listening to Him is going to pull me closer to Him, and how He's going to use me to (hopefully) touch the lives of the people that I'm going to meet. God is so cool! All I need to do is give up the wheel, let Him drive, and watch where He takes me. Plus, if I'm not driving, that frees me up to play with the radio. :)